About a week ago, I stopped feeling driven to count calories.  I’ve been on Prozac now for a little over a month.  The first 2 weeks were terrible, but then around the 3^rd week, I felt myself start to blossom.  I have been feeling better and better every day.  The best way I can describe it is that I feel like new pathways are opening up in my brain daily.  I feel new things daily.  My mind is so much calmer and I am able to respond to situations more methodically without anxiety.  It’s been really exciting for me.  I’ve never had a medication work this well.  I did try Prozac a year ago for about 3 months, but only 10mg and it did absolutely nothing.  Why am I being so open about this?  Because I’ve decided I’m not going to be embarrassed about needing a little help.  I know I’m not the only one out there with this biological issue, and I also know that a good portion of the population suffers in silence.  I’m excited about having help to reach my potential.  My new favorite song is Alicia Keys “This Girl is on Fire!!!!”    I am so excited about the possibilities. Continue reading →

My beautiful friend, Tasha who so lovingly allowed me to text her incessantly during a day of panic attacks two weeks ago (reporting my blood pressure all day long even though she hadn’t really asked for that data), insisted that I get off the Coke Zero.  I know, it’s embarrassing.  I am so fanatical about eating clean in every other sense of the word.  I exercise 15 hours a week, but then I turn around and pound coke zero like it’s the last liquid left on earth.  Two weeks into starting the prozac, I had horrible panic and anxiety.  I almost threw in the towel on the med.  She insisted I stop putting chemicals like artificial sweeteners in my body.  Her words: “Aspartame will kill you.”  So I relented .  After all, I know that it gives me eczema so who knows what it’s doing to my insides right?  I’ll try anything to feel better. Continue reading →